Cinta takkan datang

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim (:

Pernah dengar tak orang cakap macam ni;

 "Cinta takkan datang kalau tak memberi, cinta takkan datang kalau tak mencari"

Ha pernah tak pernah tak ? Sebenarnya Amal dah laaama terdengar ayat ni, daripada satu filem melayu kot *zaman filem melayu belum jadi mengarut dan tahyul macam sekarang =.=* Tapi maaflah, CINTA yang Amal maksudkan kt sini bukan cinta yang seronok2 tu, bukan cinta yang angau2 tu, tapi cinta pada Yang Satu :) tapi ! kalau nk tau pasal cinta yang satu lagi tu boleh usha di sini, best2 ! ^_^ 

CINTA TAKKAN DATANG KALAU TAK MEMBERI

Amal rasa dalam filem tu, dia takde lah maksudkan cinta pada Yang Satu, rasanya dia tujukan kat awek dia kot ^_^" tapi bila difikirkan balik, boleh la di apply dalam kita mencari cinta Allah :) 

Jadi, kenapa Amal cakap cinta Allah takkan datang kalau tak memberi ? Simple. Kalau kita tak berikan cinta kita pada Allah, kenapa Dia perlu bagi cinta Dia kt kita, kan kan kan ? So, mcm mana nak mencintai Allah ? Simple jugak. Konsep dia MEMBERI jugak :) BERI masa untuk Dia, BERI tumpuan untuk Dia, BERI peluang untuk cinta Dia memenuhi hati kita. Luangkan masa untuk bersama orang2 yang mencintai Dia, luangkan masa untuk baca warkah rindu Dia, luang masa untuk kenal kekasih2 Dia yang lain :) BERI tumpuan dan peluang, in the sense that, JANGAN lah, JANGAN sesekali mencintai yang selain Dia, bukan kerana Dia. Maksud Amal, kalau kita mencintai manusia, cintalah kerana Dia. Bukannya apa, tapi takut2 kalau kita mencintai BUKAN kerana Allah, kita akan dipandu oleh nafsu, ditemani syaitan. Nauzubillah. Amal pun masih berusaha, moga2 Allah bantu kita  semua ^_^v

CINTA TAKKAN DATANG KALAU TAK MENCARI

Untuk yang ni, nak petik kata2 yang ternampak kt newsfeed FB. hehe. credits to the owner :) 

If you're hungry, you don't wait for food to come, you go and look fr food,If you don't have money, don't expect that it'll fall frm the sky, find it (work),If it's dark, don't just sit down and do nothing, find some light.If there's no hidayah in you, don't just wait fr it (sampai seru), go and FIND IT ! 

Sobs T_T mendalam kan ? kalau benda lain kita USAHA untuk cari, tapi kenapa hidayah dan cinta Allah kita boleh duduk goyang kaki tunggu jatuh dari langit ? NO DEAR, it doesn't work that way. Go, look for it ! Di mana ? Simple. Cinta Allah, ada dengan mereka2 yang CINTA PADA DIA. Jadi sebagai pencari, kita carilah orang2 yang mencintai Allah. Duduk bersama, bercerita tentang Dia, perhatikan macam mana mereka2 mencintai Dia. Biiznillah, moga cinta Allah pada dia spread ke hati kita pulak nanti ^_^ 

Jom la kita cari, cari cinta Dia, dan cinta dia bila kita cukup cinta pada Dia :) 

Wallahua'lam.

Safe Haven

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

A cup of bittersweet coffee and I'm wide awake. Big thanks to Nicholas Sparks =.= the book I was reading just now was just so addictive I couldn't stop. This, would definitely pay in the classes tomorrow. Aish, wrong move. 

The book was awesome. I always like how Sparks arranges his words and thoughts. Arranging thoughts, something I could never do well. At least that was what someone had once said to me. That someone said, without hesitation, "In order to get to point A, you went to B, C, till Z. Then go back to point A". That was harsh, right ? But it's true though. Like what I'm doing now. When I'm supposed to talk about the book, I went and rambled about anything but the book. Zzzz. 

So yea, Safe Haven is one of the latest from Sparks.  It was quite different from what I read of his before. This time, there is a bit of thriller, suspense, mystery. Quite interesting. Sparks is going out of his usual zone :) 

But rather, I think it's interesting because it distracted me. From that certain thing. 

Pen off. 

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She flipped back to the chapter that had already been finished. Refusing to move to the next chapter, she read and read and read. Word by word, line by line. It was the best chapter, yet. It was so beautiful, she wished the story ends there. Irony enough, story lines didn't usually follow what she expected. If she or anyone else in this world could guess life, than that won't be life. This is life, because only He knows. With trembling hands, she opened the next chapter.

Her eyes met new lines, new words, new story. But her heart, stayed at the previous. She was scared, scared that she might forget. Because there was just too little to be remembered.

And there was just too little hope for her to cling on to.

Takut

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Aku menulis keranaMu ya Allah. 

Iman, ada naik turunnya. Sebab itulah, sangat penting untuk kita jaga iman. Maha suci Allah, Amal dapat rasakan yang baru2 ni, iman Amal semakin menurun. Rasa kosong, rasa rindu. Tiba2 Allah ketuk pintu hati Amal dengan satu kesedaran, "Hidayah itu milik Allah".

Amal mula jadi takut. Lihat sekeliling. Islam, tapi berpakaian hampir telanjang ? Ramai. Islam, tapi berpegangan tangan di khalayak ? Ramai. Islam, berusrah, tapi bercouple ? Ada je. Islam, tapi melangkah ke tempat2 maksiat ? Ramai. Islam, tapi tidak jadikan al-Quran sebagai pedoman ? Ramai. Islam, tapi MURTAD, RAMAI !

Sayang, apabila jenis2 orang yang Amal sebut kan di atas, ramai yang sedar DIA TU ISLAM. Ramai yang tahu SOLAT TU APA. Ramai yang tahu AL-QURAN ITU PEGANGAN YANG NYATA. Tapi kenapa mereka begitu ? sebab,  "Hidayah itu milik Allah".

Amal kembali menilai usaha2 Amal menjaga hidayah, cukupkah ? Am I grateful enough of the hidayah He gave me ? Perasaan takut mula datang lagi. Amal manusia biasa yang tak lari daripada silap, masih dibelenggu karat2 jahiliyah. Takut, suatu hari nanti hidayah tidak lagi jadi milik Amal, tidak lagi menjadi milik kita semua. Tanpa iman dan Islam, what is there for us to live with ? Takut.

KEMBALI PADA AL-QURAN ! KEMBALI PADA AL-QURAN ! KEMBALILAH PADA ALLAH !!! 

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Last night was a nightmare for her. It ended. What they both had for a quite sometime, ended, just the way she imagined it would be. Rough, tough, hurtful. And worse, she wasn't ready for it. But yeah, she didn't think that she will EVER be ready, not in a month, neither in a million years. She wasn't ready to stop talking to him, she wasn't ready to stop laughing, she wasn't ready to let go. She loved to talk, and he listened. It went so well, but they both know that it was WRONG. They were not supposed to be that close. It was WRONG. He was a good listener, although sometimes she didn't want to admit it. And now that she only has Him to listen to her, she began to learn to tell Him. And also, to do what she does best besides talking. 


She begins to write. 

Bila Allah pula yang bertanya

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim (:

Pernah tak kawan2, bila dah lama tak jumpa kawan lama atau saudara mara, bila jumpa mereka akan tanya;

Si Polan: Apa khabar ? Dah lama tak jumpa. What have you been doing this lately ? :) 

So, what have WE been doing this lately ? hehe ;)

Bila saudara or kawan2 yang tanya, jawab je la macam biasa kan. Study, exam, yada2. TAPI ! hehe. Tadi, kakak naqibah Amal yang tanya. 

Kakak: Apa yang kamu buat sepanjang minggu ni ? :) 

Tak tahu la kenapa, tapi hati ni terasa macam nak impress akak, nak bagitau yang kita dah buat amalan tet tet tet and tet. Riak ? Ujub ? Takbur ? Entah laa. Tapi yang Amal pasti, Amal rasa kakak sendiri pun nak dengar benda2 yang baik je. Kan kan kan ? Ye laa, dah dia yang berusaha mentarbiyyahkan Amal dan sisters laen. Datang dari jauh, semata-mata mengajar kami mengenal Allah SWT. Nak ke dia dengar jawapan yang erm, not up to standard ? Contoh; 

Amal 1: Ohhh. Tak buat pape sangat pun. FB, tido, makan. Camtu je laa.

Amal 2: Ohhh. This week busy laa. Nak bukak al-Quran pun tak sempat.

Amal 3: Ohhh. Pergi klas, balik klas. Tu je la rasanya.

Kakak tu mesti rasa usaha dia sia2 kan ? Macam Amal ni tak belajar pape pun daripada apa yang dia ajar. Okay, Amal takde laa nak cakap Amal kena beribadat sebab nak jawab soalan dia. Cuba kita jadikan kisah Amal ni sebagai analogi je.

CUBA FIKIR, 

Kalau Allah yang tanya soalan tu kat kita. Apa yang kita dah buat sepanjang hidup kita ?

Jeng3 ! Apa kita nak jawab ? Nak tipu ? Semua anggota badan boleh bercakap nanti. Memang harapan je la kalau nak tipu kan. Hmm, dan selepas penghisaban, akan tibalah hukuman2 atau ganjaran2. 

AND,

Kalau jawapan kita not up to His standard, means we have not been doing what we are supposed to do in this temporary life, and kita mengecewakan Dia setelah kita mendapat hidayah, apa agak2 nya akan jadi kat kita eh ? 

HMM, SIMPLE. TO THE HELL WE GO. 

It's never too late to change. Everyday is another chance for us to repent. Erm, wait. EVERY SECOND. So we kind of have LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS of chances to repent. Do we APPRECIATE it ?

Tepuk dada, tanya iman :) 

wallahua'lam.