It has been awhile now. And I decided to write you a letter. Yes, it has been awhile, but I can never forget you. Because you used to be the greatest friend I had ever have. Used to be.
Dear friend,
It was not an easy decision. In fact, it was a really tough time for me. Trust me, it was difficult. But thanks to you, you made it easier. Leaving you left me questions I can never answer. Was it the right move? Was it my fault? Or was it all wrong? Only He knows.
Dear friend,
I know you will never come across this letter, that is why I write it here. Now I am going to tell you the truth. Nothing but just plain truth.
Dear friend,
A day had never passed by without me thinking what would it be if we were still friends. We will laugh together, have fun together, and go places together. We had fun, yes we did. But what would He think of us? Where will all the fun bring us to? Definitely not to Him. That defeats our purpose of living in this temporary world. We are NOT HERE JUST TO HAVE FUN. We are here with special missions. To become His servants and lead the ummah. Fun will bring us nowhere but to the burning hot hell. I explained that to you and I thought you understood. I was wrong.
Dear friend,
I am disappointed. With myself. I changed you. But you changed because of me. Now that I am no longer a part of your life, all the changes are gone. I failed to guide you, friend. I failed miserably. And I blame no one but myself. If only I have a little bit more time.
Dear friend,
You're too far now. I can no longer reach you. But I never stop hoping. I always pray, that someday, you'll come back to Him. I believe in you, and I believe that He will grant my doa. If not today, He will, in future.
Dear friend,
There is more to life than just having fun. Yes, maybe you can run from your responsibility now. But you can't run from His questions in the life hereafter. I hope, I really really hope that one day you will understand this jihad that I am in. And I hope you will understand that this jihad does not only include me, it also includes you, for you are a Muslim.
Dear friend,
I loved you before, and I still love you now. I love you friend because of Him. I am happy to know that you're happy with your life now. But I hope that one day you'll come back to Him. You'll come back to Him.
Ameen.
